Reach 4 your soul

Hello my dear friends. You are my friends, you keep me striving for peacefulness and a good state of mind. You keep me going. I would wish upon a star that you don't go away and remember the good moments we have experienced together.  It's not that hard. Every situation has a meaning, every moment counts for something. Words that have been inserted into the air, directed a you and you, and you too; were meant all the way. I do care. Maybe, I care too much, for my own good. And now, in this trice of a breather that I embrace, making my body feel numb and tired; deprived of comfort and inwardness, I can solemnly tell you that the pleasure has been all mine. I am truly honored and grateful.  It's been interesting. Did you really mean it when you said you liked how I write? That is so awesome, not because you complemented by writing but because I made a connection and you took something with you. I remember that pith of my life and will carry it, always....

As I'm on my way to see you, I think of the embarrassing things I have done that I regret. The only one to blame it's me. It seems I always find a way to screw up. There is no excuse. One would say that nobody is perfect; we all make mistakes right? I don't want to disappoint you anymore, I've come to a phase in this life where I'm more conscientious of my emotions, my actions. Some experiences feel like I'm literally besides myself, watching me, shaking my head, knowing that I could do better, so little better. There are times; I must admit, where I cannot get a handle on my reactions. Even if the outcome is kinda expected. Most of the times but decreasing as time permits, I get surprised by the way other beings respond or simply act (Specially when interacting with humans). No matter how many times I tell myself what I must or mustn't do, I end up doing or not doing it. It's like I am not in control of me, to the point where I do not recognize...