≠Nope

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Going through some blockage.
I’ve been there many times, so much that I have come to the conclusion that here is where I belong.

I try to stay active, I look at myself, carefully.
Staring at the TV’s wallpaper and seeing my self image in the shadows really feels like the real me. Blurry.

Looking at options, going over it and over again; getting to the same starting point. 
Uncontrollable, reoccurring thoughts going through my head. All the time.

The best you can do is stop trying, lay on the floor and exist for a while.
You’re in for a long ride.

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